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[29 Jun 2009|01:44am] [ mood | determined ] my past posts are ridiculous. note to self: strive to be cooler. Trick

[05 Jun 2009|12:05pm] [ mood | cold ] i feel sick. life is funny with all of its curve balls. it's pretty awesome at the same time though. i am coming to depend on god so much. but... i still feel like i could puke =) also, i am becoming more... untrusting of people. oh well. it is the way of things, i guess. Trick

[04 Jun 2009|01:49am] [ mood | sleepy ] if i ever marry a man who is a musician, i pray that, when he proposes, "faithfully" by journey is playing. Trick

[02 Jun 2009|11:19am] [ mood | cheerful ] today is going to be a good day. one, it's my day off. those are always beautiful. two, i just feel so blessed. three, i am amazed at how god is teaching me to ignore my anxiousness and embrace patience. last night i had a dream and goose was in it. i woke up so happy which is funny because it was definitely a god teaching me things dream. i know i am learning that being patient has many rewards, and how to have a quiet mouth and heart, letting god and the men he has placed in my life lead. it's all blowing me away. but on another note, i caught up on my reading and my sleep. now i want to wash my car... ha. we'll see. Trick

[31 May 2009|02:49pm] [ mood | optimistic ] today was pretty amazing. i took dee to angelus temple and showed her around the dc. she loved it. the message today was AWESOME. totally what we needed to hear. on the way home, we got to talking about life, god, and boys as we usually do. my heart breaks for her every time. i love rob and she loves rob, but i continually pray for their marriage and the healing it needs. i love my life so much, and i wouldn't change it, but there are things that i wish were in my grasp. i wish i didn't have my debt so i could live somewhere like the dream center and just serve those in need. i wish i had more freedom to pursue my audio schooling more. i AM going to be able to do those things one day, just in god's timing, not mine. i WILL learn to be patient eventually. i am so thankful for my friends and family. they are so wonderful to me. my sister and jack especially. whenever i need inspiration, there they are. lately i have been feeling... melancholy. yeah. i have realized that i tend to lose faith in people and their words real quick. i am working on it though. god is definitely moving in my life in a big way. he has brought people around me that are such blessings. i can't even put into words my appreciation for that. relationships. i realize what i want and what i need as far as they go, but sometimes my head and heart try to get ahead of me. i am trying so hard to be patient and wait on the lord, but sometimes it is really trying. this boy is a pretty amazing kid. so blessed and filled with the spirit. i just pray he isn't being distant for any other reason than where the lord is leading him. not that i am saying he's "the one" or anything, but he really... impresses? me. i feel honored to be a friend of his, and am excited in how he makes me want to strive to be a better christian and a better person. Trick

[10 May 2009|09:45am] [ mood | sleepy ] so i was driving home last night and got passed up by a lady definitely older than 70. She had her windows rolled down and a cigarette in her mouth. i was going 80. she HAD to have been going at LEAST 90. hilarious. and happy momma's day. Trick

[08 May 2009|11:06pm] [ mood | happy ] watching season one of home improvement. awesome. Trick

[25 Apr 2009|03:21pm] Life is good. Trick

[21 Apr 2009|02:19pm] [ mood | accomplished ] you know, i am just so blown away with life right now. i'm sitting here watching the nation geo. channel about the grand cannon. just looking at everything, hearing about life and nature there, i cant help but praise god for all he has done here. i complain about how lame it all can get and how horrible we have made this earth, but it really is beautiful. my aunt and i cried at each other today over all of our sins and accomplishments in this life. it was refreshing. i have so much respect and admiration for her. i mean, she use to totally piss me off as a kid, but she just blows my mind. her growth in christ astounds me. oh, and on a lighter note, i look like a lopsided rudolph. no lie. Trick

[18 Apr 2009|11:12pm] [ mood | contemplative ] sometimes i just sit and listen to people talk. people have some pretty funny opinions. i mean, i am cool with people expressing whatever they want to express (that IS the lovely thing about opinions), but what i don't like is when people become angry and defensive if i chime in. for example, i was just sitting her listening to my mother talk about people having babysitters. she says it is offensive to her when people have children and pass them off to a babysitter, even if both of them have to work to support a family. if that is the case, according to her, then they should not be allowed to have children. now, i personally would not have children if i couldn't stay home with them, but i don't hate or think any differently of those who don't agree. i'm pretty sure she is mad at me for thinking that. i apparently "don't know anything about it." maybe i don't. i just think it's a pretty funny situation i am in now. on another note, i really love life. i mean, even the sucky times are precious. i am so blessed to have such amazing friends, and i continue to meet awesome people. i am reading the bible every day, once in the morning and once at night. usually 30 minutes minimum each time. it's amazing for me because i normally never read. my prayer is being blessed by it especially. huge thanks to elijah for the accountability. so i am watching the history channel and it's on the end times. it is SUPER interesting, and while scary, i find that i am not scared. maybe uncomfortable ha, but not scared. really though, i just don't want to drown... or be buried alive in ants. hopefully i won't die either way. ha. it is officially past my bedtime. goodnight. 4 Treat| Trick

[13 Apr 2009|04:23pm] [ mood | depressed ] so i am watching dr. phil right? it's about a man and his wife and how they have a failing marriage. well, this is their second marriage... to each other. keepers right? so this man is visiting dating sites (on his wedding day too, i might add). anyway, when confronted with this, he says that, like all responsible men in a mature relationship, he is doing the right thing, too late maybe, but the right thing. whatever that means. then he says he is doing research of how women are thinking and acting nowadays. he said if he wanted to cheat, he would be exercising his right to date. after this, he says that the fact that his wife hooked spyware on his computer is a stab in the back and a joke and stuff. it is awesome. then, going back to the day OF their wedding, he was setting up a date later THAT night with "melissa" from a dating site! hahaha. wow. his response was, well i didn't know if she or i would make it to the alter, or ditch each other or what. isn't he AWESOME?! on another note, the news at 5 today is going to tell us, FINALLY, "the real reason why we are all so tired lately." i've been waiting for this info for the past 20 years. thanks cbs. Trick

[12 Apr 2009|11:57pm] [ mood | amazed. ] i am amazed by god. enough said. Trick

truth? [06 Apr 2009|12:59am] [ mood | happy ] [ music | arcade fire - neon bible ] i was told today that all it takes to get a boy to like you is to grab his butt and call him captain. truth? you tell me. Trick

for the love of... [03 Apr 2009|10:56pm] [ mood | annoyed ] okay, judge me all you want with this blog. yesterday i turned on the tv and for the love of ray j was on. normally i turn that trash off real quick, but i remembered jack and i trying to make up stupid nicknames like theirs so i kept it on for a bit. at this point, it was down to four girls: unique, danger, cocktail, and chardonnay. anyway, long story short, i get hooked and watch the entire episode. during this, brandy, who just so happens to be ray j's sister, was giving the girls lie detector tests. the other girls wrote down the questions that were asked by the way. so. the whole point of my story. the answers these girls had. it hurts my heart. for example, cocktail, an extremely beautiful girl, got asked, "do you need a man to complete you?," to which she answered, "yes". turns out this is true. how sad is that? another was asked if she had serious thoughts about killing the other girls in the house (this is danger, p.s.). true. another got asked if she was only in this for ray j's money and the fame that could help her career. she said no, which was a lie. yet, both brandy and ray j like this girl, and she is still in the running, which is down to the bottom three. is it really so acceptable to assume that a man can complete you? is it really so acceptable to keep seeing a girl that you KNOW is only after your money and fame? even if she is "cool"? is it really so acceptable to date a girl that has stabbed another person, and has killer thoughts? no, forget all that. is it really so acceptable to have a show that however many women come on to date you? this world kills me. and yet, i sat and watched the whole thing. on another note, i love my lord. he constantly amazes me. check out micah 7:8: 7 Therefore I will look to the LORD; I will wait for the God of my salvation; My God will hear me. 8 Do not rejoice over me, my enemy; When I fall, I will arise; When I sit in darkness, The LORD will be a light to me. 9 I will bear the indignation of the LORD, Because I have sinned against Him, Until He pleads my case And executes justice for me. He will bring me forth to the light; I will see His righteousness. Trick

top 10 [31 Mar 2009|04:25pm] [ mood | sleepy ] Bullshit Professions I was thinking that maybe advertising was the world's number one bullshit profession. After semi-painstaking analysis and consideration, however, I am happy to report that advertising is way down at number eight. To develop this list I did two things. First I eliminated all occupations that are obviously scams -- like palm reader, astrologer, and economist. Second, I used only one criterion in creating the list: Do they really know anything or are they just making shit up? Okay, drum roll -- The Ad Contrarian Top 10 Bullshit Professions: 1. Career Counselors: If they knew anything they'd find themselves better jobs. 2. Clergymen: God-bothering bullies masquerading as holy men. 3. Psychotherapists: Practitioners of the world's most advanced form of pseudoscience. 4. Politicians: Insufferable egotists pretending to be "public servants." 5. Branding Consultants: Why didn't I think of this scam? 6. Art Critics: Thankfully, no one pays attention except rich twits. 7. Actors: We tell them where to stand. We tell them what to say. They win awards. 8. Ad Executives: You can build a career by memorizing 10 cliches. 9. Financial Advisors: Monkeys throwing darts. 10. Third Base Umpires: One call a game if you're lucky. http://adcontrarian.blogspot.com/2008/10/top-10-bullshit-professions.html Truth. Trick

[07 Feb 2008|12:08am] [ mood | confused ] Confusion. I don't understand emotion. When you think you are happy and satisfied, you aren't. More prayer. Trick

[02 Jul 2007|12:13am] [ mood | sleepy ] I need to learn to not be anxious. And to not always seek people out. Sigh. Trick

[30 Jun 2007|10:16pm] [ mood | content ] "It means that love isnt about being afraid that it will all be snatched away. Love's about finding that one person who makes your heart complete, who makes you a better person than you ever dreamed you could be. It's about looking into the eyes of your wife and knowing, all the way to your bones, that she's simply the best person you've ever known." Beautiful. Trick

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